the agony of waiting

March 5, 2009
2:02PM
Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia

It’s been a month since I became officially jobless. My company has forced us to resign earlier than the end of our contract (mine should end March next year). Yeah, I am one of the many victims of the global economic crisis.

I am now inside my room in front of my laptop, searching for a prospective employer, trying to look for a job that fits my qualifications. Yeah, I have been invited for some job interviews, but I haven’t received any reply from them. I am confident that I did well on the interviews, but one thing that I am worried that might be affecting their decision, is that I might be asking a salary that is too high. As we all know, “the world is in crisis” so companies are also doing some measures just to survive 2009. I am now thinking, of asking a lower pay just to get a job, anyway, what is important is I have a job that will keep me going plus some of my other responsibilities.

I am very free right now, that’s why a lot of things are running on my mind. So instead of sleeping or staying in one corner of the room, I opted to put everything in writing – an extension of what I am feeling right now.

I never felt sad during the first month of me being jobless; I have been busy doing my school requirements, watching tv, dipping into the pool, gym, badminton as if I am just taking a luxurious vacation. Now, I am nearing to the 2nd month as a bum, and as each day reaches its end without receiving any email or any call, the cycle of waiting will start again. That’s the reason why I am always excited for the next day, new openings might be posted, employers might review my applications, I might be receiving a call with good news that will set the end of waiting and put the future plans that I have set to “offline” into “online” once again.

But don’t get me wrong that I am losing hope. No, I am not. With the support that is coming from my wife and friends, I am stronger than before. This is just like the test of life that I was able to surpass and able to find happiness later on. This test might have overlapped with the test that I am still trying to finish, but I will make sure to complete each stage and move forward.

Lord God, I know you have plans for each one of us and I will be patiently waiting. You know that I have also a lot of plans and a lot of people to help. Forgive me if have forgotten you during those times of happiness. I am humbly praying to you to please grant my petitions and give me a good job. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.